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Name: Colin
Location: Woodstock, Georgia, United States
Birthday: 4/17/1990
Gender: Male


Interests: Swords
Expertise: Swords, writing
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Member Since: 6/10/2005

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Friday, January 26, 2007

My overdue return

The tomb's locked door shudders. The grass around the tomb withers and turns brown. The tempature, though winter, gets warmer as the shuddering strengthens. A mocking laugh sounds beneath the heavy stone door and the lock twists and snaps. The shudders stops instantly, as if there was no movement at all. Cracking knuckles and reformation of bones comes from within the tomb. The stone door is split in half, a large crack running down the middle. The doors burst from their bolts and flies ten feet from the tomb. Another mocking laugh comes from the dark depth of the tomb.

I take my bow as the sunlight hits my pale skin.

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I'm back for today. How about that? Colin is still alive.

I didn't go to school today. It's hypocritical of me not to, too. I didn't have any pants! Unless they wanted me to come in my boxers, I couldn't readily go. As much as that statement surely makes a few females cry - *snickers* - I just couldn't go. Looking back, I suppose I should have... had stuff to do and such.

I keep partial tabs on some of my older friends at WHS and I can't help but laugh at their lives. It is not that their lives are very hard. It is, simply put, that they lack any form of common sense at all. I have made mistakes in the past, sure, but I can always fix them. If I cannot fix them, then they are not worth fixing. Moving was one of the best things that has ever happened to me. I have grown in mind and body.  One of the main problems of staying in one place all your life is that you are ignorant to the world around you. My travels have just made me into more of an Atheist (I love being an Atheist. I was an Atheist since I was eight years old. No, I was not Christian/Other-Religion before then. At eight I could make a coherent choice in my life. I chose to be open-minded.)

I am going to suggest an Atheist Club at my school, Sprayberry high School, and I am hoping they like the idea. The problem with Atheists is that we are not mobilized. We are amorphous, no shape to our style of life. If we can come together and take a piece of this world for ourselves, I believe the Christians and all others that call us heathens, or whatever their deity tells them to call us, will see that we are very serious about our views.

I find it funny, however, that people put others into mental asylums for being schitzophrenic, but they do not put religious people into those very asylums. Is not "I hear (Enter someone's name) Elvis talking to me" the same than "God has told me (Something) someone is going to attack the president on whatever-day"? I mean... what is the difference? Someone really needs to start that Church of Elvis! Poor bastards. If I understand correctly, I can commit genocide and blame it on the Christian deity for it to be A-Okay with the world. If that is the case, then let us go on a killing spree! *laughs*

Everyone who has met me know I am not one for religion. I am logical, if anything, and I do not care about Jesus' whore of a mother. It is obvious that Joseph was a eunich and Mary wanted a kid. They were low on whatever currency they used and she sold herself for money. Hah! That means Christianity is formed from a prostitute and a bastard-son (He would have been a bastard either way: some middle-eastern guy or Yahweh). Another thing, I do not get is that there are tons of books about gods and fantasy (see: Dragons of Autumn Twilight), but no one sees it as religious text? Paladine is obviously a much better 'good' god than ol' Yahweh/God. Hell, Takhisis is a better deity than Yahweh/God!

Atleast Paladine was a cool god. He was Fizban! Fizban was a good guy.

If anyone religious would care to.. hm... -try- and prove me wrong.. Please do. It will be fun before you start threatening me, sending me to -YOUR- hell, and whatever else you sheep think God will do.

Plus, Jesus took my birthday: http://www.manilatimes.net/national/2006/dec/17/yehey/opinion/20061217opi2.html

That's it for me,

Colin 'Better-than-Jesus' Sellers

 


Friday, July 07, 2006


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"No!" said Thorin. "There is more in you of good than you know, child of the kindly West. Some courage and some wisdom, blended in measure. If more of us valued food and cheer above hoarded gold, it would be a merrier world. But sad or merry, I must leave it now. Farewell!"
- The Hobbit, Thorin Oakenshield's last words.


Saturday, June 17, 2006

Morpheus opens a container which holds two pills : a blue one, and a red one.

Morpheus : This is your last chance. After this, there is no turning back.....You take the blue pill, the story ends. You wake up and belive...whatever you want to believe. You take the red pill.....you stay in wonderland...and I show you just how deep the rabbit hole goes. 

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I would choose the red pill.

I have never been one to want to do the same thing every day, never questioning why I do it. I question everyone's beliefs and many only come at me with metaphorical pitchforks and torches. I will not be suprised if those will not be metaphorical one day. I do not ask a god or any being to release me from my mortal bonds, and I do not ask for eternal pleasure or happiness in the next world.

The matrix is a very good representation of this. It may be an entertaining movie, but the pills are not actually pills. They are choices: Ignorance or the Truth. I can argue for hours with people who disagree with me. They have called me ignorant and closed minded, because I am not in the mass. I do not follow the teachings that have been imprinted on their minds their whole life.

Some people do not want to put up with the truth. They won't accept it because they want to believe something, or they have been taught something so much it had been imprinted into their minds forever more.

Some people seem to be on the other side of the fence, the intellectual side. These people can be mistakened as intelligent because they use big words and they mark themselves as superior. This, of course, is foolish.

On a final note:

To those who read this little rant think before you choose. Think about your life, do not automatically choose the red one to be badass. Do you really want to know the truth, the truth that can disprove everything you've been taught your whole life?

Choose carefully and do not take with alchohol.


Sunday, March 26, 2006

Fine. You've all forced my hand. You believe things that can't possibly be real. You're all ignorant. Even though I still have to respect you, which I will, I will not be around to help you anymore. Grow up. I am not mad. I know when I'm not welcome anymore. Believe a new person other than a person who has proved himself to be your friend ten thousand times over.

I feel that is the worst insult I have ever undertaken in this life.

Go to someone else when you have problems. I know who my friends are now.

You have shown your true colors. You have taught me something... I am not to trust any of you ever again. Sick fucks. You've lost anything I ever was to you. Forever.

Goodbye.

Oh, and a message to Chrissy McGhostyPants. Stop stalking those two dumbasses. They're lives will be fucked up enough as it is without you. Dick. You want to know malice and fear? Find me and see how I stack up against your fears.


Thursday, March 23, 2006

A great man once said, "It's reckless to gamble your life when you don't even understand the game." - As you can see... A few panels up. Of course now he is dead, killed by a draegloth. But that is beside the point, or rather it is the point. He risked his life, his station, his whole being just to protect a female. He was in love, he was of a race where love, compassion, etc are taboo. He did not understand it and he got killed.

But that little story goes hand-in-hand with what I am about to say; I neither understand love, nor do I claim that I know of it. I have dismissed many 'loves,' saying they were fake, childish, all all that. I don't know many things, and, in truth, I believe everyone I know still has a shit load of growing up to do. You can damn the government, act as random as can be, smother your problems with love... But they will always come back.... I'll continue this later... I have some Nazis to kill. =3



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